reblog if 2013 will be your year <3
(Source: sweatlikeagirl, via skinnyvanillalatee)
Seriously need to start a serious fitness plan on Monday. No more excuses, no more failing, no more giving up. I feel like I’ve restarted too many times. I know exactly what I need to do but I always screw it up. I gotta stay motivated!!! Ahh I’ll try anything. I want to feel cute and wear what I want :(
Today I went and signed up for a gym! :) so excited.
My eating today was alright, not bad.
Breakfast : oatmeal
Lunch: sushi
Snack: Starbucks
Dinner: tomato soup, hummus and carrots
Tomorrow is my aunts birthday and we are going to a movie, so I will be getting popcorn, but that’s my treat for the week.
I need to cut down my Starbucks intake…. Slowly but surely..
Laying in bed crying my eyes out all night. I am so unhappy with how I look. I know that its all up to me to change, but I can’t seem too.
I look back at pictures from this summer when I was sticking to a healthy diet and I am soooo happy with how I was looking and how progress was getting made, but for the past 2 and a half months I haven’t given a care to what I eat or if I even work out.
Im talking McDonalds regularly, Starbucks alllll the time, Chips, Chocolate, WHATEVER. i have been so bad. 2 and a half months is beyond a binge.
But about once a week I always get an inspirational kick to start living healthy again, but the next morning i wake up and I just feel like its too hard and too much work and I dont have enough time, and I choose simple, easy, unhealthy options.
My grad class had a fashion show last night, looking through the pics i feel DISGUSTED, I know that i will never be the skinniest girl, nor do I want to be, but i should NOT be looking how i am. Its sad.
I want to wake up tomorow and just start over and fresh and TRY but I am so afraid that its just another little kick that doesnt last.
The best part is, its all up to me so why dont i just do it!!
I DO NOT KNOW WHY.
I dont even have enough followers to talk too about when I am going through hard times, I dont have too many people in life I can talk about stuff like this too.
Just been crying in my room allnight. Awesome. Maybe will scroll through Tumblr for some inspiration
So today was supposed to be my first day being healthy. Well let me tell you, I MESSED THAT UP. started the morning off with yogurt and a peach and some almonds on the side. I drank green tea all morning. Then this is where I screwed up…
For lunch I went with my friend to McDonalds and had a McChicken meal, and then later that day I had some chips. SO YEAH I FEEL DISGUSTING.
For dinner I had eggs and potatoes….it was pretty bad but I was visiting my dad and couldn’t help it. But it was my lunch/chips that really make me feel horrible.
I have to take it one day at a time and start again tomorrow but I feel like I do not have enough strength to do this :((