Laying in bed crying my eyes out all night. I am so unhappy with how I look. I know that its all up to me to change, but I can’t seem too.
I look back at pictures from this summer when I was sticking to a healthy diet and I am soooo happy with how I was looking and how progress was getting made, but for the past 2 and a half months I haven’t given a care to what I eat or if I even work out.
Im talking McDonalds regularly, Starbucks alllll the time, Chips, Chocolate, WHATEVER. i have been so bad. 2 and a half months is beyond a binge.
But about once a week I always get an inspirational kick to start living healthy again, but the next morning i wake up and I just feel like its too hard and too much work and I dont have enough time, and I choose simple, easy, unhealthy options.
My grad class had a fashion show last night, looking through the pics i feel DISGUSTED, I know that i will never be the skinniest girl, nor do I want to be, but i should NOT be looking how i am. Its sad.
I want to wake up tomorow and just start over and fresh and TRY but I am so afraid that its just another little kick that doesnt last.
The best part is, its all up to me so why dont i just do it!!
I DO NOT KNOW WHY.
I dont even have enough followers to talk too about when I am going through hard times, I dont have too many people in life I can talk about stuff like this too.
Just been crying in my room allnight. Awesome. Maybe will scroll through Tumblr for some inspiration